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haiz..today after went into the class jiu no mood n sad..y say so? cause ta again bah..today rain lo..so no need line up..i mai go up to classroom wif minli lo...juz go inside ba le jiu saw dao ta gen ta playin n talking all de way..n i juz put my bag n bring kei to toilet to tell her sumthing bout blue hse de la coz dun feel like stayin in class...i feel like killing myself la...let go la!!!!!!! den during add maths , i was nt feelin quite well coz get gastric..n din even take any food durin recess...i was in pain but onli minli n maine realize..i juz feel like 'dang yao ta zai shen pang de shi hou...ta pian pian bu zai'...n today during acc , i give out the books..ta de bestfrend so noisy...n kahyeen acc book on my hand..i really feel like dun wan to pass by ta de table...n after skul..i packin my bag..suddenly i feel lonely...luckily at de end kei catch up n ask me wat happen...im angry wif myself coz i say i dun wan care bt still doin de same thing..im so sorry..i dun think i can make it to chg my own decision....i hv no confident on you... :(