wat i really want?

haiz..i also dun even noe wat i really want..i memang cacat la...when i dun hv de thing , i really wan it very much bt cant...bt when i hv it edi..i jiu bu xiang wan anymore...duh..lame..izit all ppl also like dat de leh?? n dat tuesday during spbt staybck , i talk many things wif wk lo...abt dat thing again la..hahaz..i dun think u all guess dao is wat lo..onli cyy..maine n wk know onli...wk say to me dat ta even without me also ok de lo...act..i agree also..dats y i gt one post named 'REGRET' which talk abt myself n ta de..bt now..i dun wan to think anything anymore le..wanna juz live happily wif my life dat im havin now.. i know ta starts gettin happier le..so..i think ta ok also even without me..wish ta all de best in every exam...n stay happy 4ever wif ta de friends...i promise myself nt to care anymore...bt dunno y keep caring..lamer..im really is dat kind of person which is...when i hv it i din appreciate n bu xiang wan it bt when i lose it , i wan it bck..im damn damn stubborn n stupid..bt if ta stick wif me..i feel uncomfortable worr bt when nothin liao jiu wan bck like last time...i also dunno hw to describe myself...dunno la...wanna relax my mind..say dun care means dun care..futhermore i also oredi explain..